On How To Be A Goddess

Exams are like pregnancies. They make u feel very unsexy, haha.

I feel it is crucial for a gal to feel comfortable in her own skin, to feel that she is beautiful in her own ways, not for anyone else but herself.

There is nothing more alluring than a woman who exudes confidence about her body. She can be wearing big baggy well-worn sweatshirt and still be very attractive, simply from the way how she comfortably relaxes on a couch with freshly washed hair reading a magazine. U don't need to have J Lo's body to feel good about yourself. And baring it all without leaving room for imagination is nothing short of being skanky.

It is easy to catch the blinking sign that says:" Look at me da bomb" on other gals. They have nice long, tanned legs, luscious hair and curves that meander like the tea farms in Cameron Highlands, and the green monster in u surfaces and u hope it can crunch this gal up. Sexy gals are eye candies but they are bad for your ego. Most gals see other sexy gals as threats, those grapes hanging too high to reach hence they must be sour. But then i realised, I do like to look at beautiful women. True, sometimes u blame God for favoritism but other than that i take pleasures in admiring them, in the spirit of scrutinising them like the Venus De Milo Statue. Oh come on, don't be so petty, u r missing the best sights of natural creations over here.

Was watching music videos in the room with Nadya recently, and had a good time sorting the gals in the music videos into the "I am Hot " and and "I am Not." categories.

Tamia in the "stranger in my house" video has our vote as being the sexiest of all. In the video she wore a brown minimalistic sleeveless top and a matching shorts (ok, very short shorts). There is nothing outrageoulsy revealing about her clothings, but she took our breath away. By the way she moves. From the start of the video, she was slowly moving towards the front of the screen through an indoor pool of still water. Very slowly. As if she knows that u want her but she is not giving it to u that...easily. So she continues wading slowly in the water in feline suaveness, singing and locking ur eyes with her intense stares, interwovenly with nonchalant looking away.

Sexy is simply the word u use on others. Sometimes u get so engrossed in checking out and commenting on other peole that u forget that they are doing the same on u. I have had comments like :" U have very sexy shoulders. " That one got me thinking a bit. Sexy shoulders? Err... My mom would be the first one to disagree, she had been complaining I rowed canoe so much in JC that i ended with straighter shoulders than before, no matter how i hard i tried to explain to her that my shoulder blades were well-formed (puberty was well over , ma!) even before i became a canoeist. Try telling her that i have sexy shoulders. And some others like:" U look sexy in that pair of earrings." or simply: " U look sexy today."

Haha, i usually discount those coming from guys by 20%. If some of them can think Pamela Anderson as being sexy. To me, her centre of gravity is definitely too high up for balancing. :P Guys and gals just don't see sexiness the same way, hee. But yea...these comments make u see the other side of yourself in newly illuminated bewilderment. Me? Sexy? Hmmm....Haha, if u say so.

I feel the best about myself soon after I take a bath and when my hair is drying up. The nice fragrant smell of shampoo emanating from my hair just makes me feel that i can be a goddess for 20 mins a day too, hahaha.

But i m definitely not feeling like a goddess now. Mugging all time round just makes u feel all bloated with repulson, eeeks.It is time to create that illusion now.Time for a late night shower.