Stop Shrinking Before I Can Hardly Breathe

As the older we grow, our world seems to be constricting around us more and more.

When we were young, we had a small world from real perspectives, but we had infinite imagination, which brought us to castles on the clouds,time-travelling through the curvature of time and space in the universe, and i used to imagine myself living in a house made entirely of glass with a see- through aquarium beneath my feet... We had plenty of companions too, at home we were lavished with bounty love from adults, we had our cousins to play with and we felt belonged when we were studying in school. We could not see the seamline of our world then.

As we left home, we left a big chunk of our 'world' behind, we left most people who have loved us and whom we loved. Cousins flew to all parts of the world to study, and seeing one another has been reduced to only a yearly ritual on Chinese New Year. So much has happened everybody's life that you don't know where to pick up from, and that being the case, u realise it is best just to say the most peripheral things to one another over a only 2-hour steamboat gathering. Friends come and go, u meet people, and u move on, only retaining some of the closest. Because friendship needs too much time and effort to maintain, and with your busy work schedule, u dun have the time and energy to keep the splinter lighted. So u smother most, keeping some to prevent being branded as a social outcast as well as to keep urself sane. Your love for people has become specialised.

When you fall in love, three becomes a crowd. Your eyes only sees him/her. Some couples become claustrophobic and shun themselves entirely from other people, revelling in their invisible bubble that has a warning sign: " Will burst if u come in." At this point, your love has become incisive like a laser point. Too intense too narrow.

I still have room to space up and down within my world . There are several close friends and family members co-habitating within it and whenever i find it suffocating, I make a phonecall to arrange for meeting-ups or to home , or make some new friends, and soon, it becomes easier to breathe once more. :)